Saturday March 21st 2009-March 22nd, 2009

So...this is the baby sis....shes the shit...love her oh.dee.....

Anyways...My life lately has been a bunch of ups and downs but i've been trying to make it all one stable terrain.

I'm trying to piece together what i can of this little life i call my own. People are coming in and out left and right. but i'm not sure if i can handle it sometimes, people and their emotions are really weird...and i always seem to take in all the backlash of it. 'Vette tells me that most situations are always in your favor...most times often then not you're preparing someone to be with someone else...which is what i've had to realize...and that as i'm sitting here typing this, i'm realizing...i prepared my ex girlfriend for her current girlfriend, they've been together for 3yrs...her and i just a few short months but in those few months i taught her and broke her of so many little habits and she was able to understand at the end of it all it wasnt always about her. but whatever...I'm really happy for her...she deserves it...Ily D.R.O

Anyway...thats how i feel most times now, i'm preparing people for someone else...when is someone else gonna prepare someone for me and send them on through..lol its crazy...anyway, I feel like that with "g.booberry" i feel like i'm helping them grow, they were very childish, immature, overbearingly full of themselves and just all around ignorant to some things...and thats ok...i guess..lol anyways...i've drawn in and withdrew myself..and when i say something and withdraw myself they always come back because my words are always worth it....and so am i...if i can get them away from themselves for a min.... and when i do which is sometimes...they seem to understand and know that i'm the best thing that has ever happened to them...but we'll see if i'm preparing them for someone or for me...i'm hoping that its me...but you know..Whatever..

I'm ready to get out of school... its time for me to go...Spring ball is going to be my night..it has to be...idgaf about anyone or anything else...its gonna be all about CHANTEL!! hair make-up and all...gotta be...Fuck it ...I'm going in...

My mother is my heart...and so i my cousin...i love her really...shes my everything..everything that i want to be and want to do for my life shes doing...and it makes me smile to think that if i needed inspiration that shes it...all the way...love her..Oh.Dee...anyways..

Outtie 5 thousie!

Chantel This time!