to be real, got to be real...

Well,
its been a few days since i've written, and i've tried to stay afloat in my feelings...but damn its hard..and the more i try the harder things get for me and the things that are going on...

Oh!.. i finally took my nails off!! thank god!! it feels great to be able to feel my actual fingernails...lol random i know.

watching this choir dance is hilarious...like really...MY choir..lol what a bunch of lames..lol wow...

my campus friend- the feeling is gone...they no longer catch my interest...its not there anymore...
well for me anyway...

the hospital love...well... that one just seems to come and go with feelings with me...i see them daily but the feelings that are there make me feel like an asshole for liking them I want so badly for me not to have any kind of feeling in my heart for them...but it seems like i cant escape it...WHY LORD!! WHY LOL

maybe its the fact that there are things attached to me;that are attached to we....what is this...the very touch of this person sends me to another place...whatever...

My Phone is still not here... I WANT MY BLACKBERRY!!! OH.EM.GEE!!!

i want some ice cream...a vanilla cone from mcdonalds...lol..oooooo....ice cream...ooooo...lol


I miss my mom...
alot...
like a whole lot...

i miss my sister...

alot..

My specialness went away when my father left...and i dont want to work to be special anymore..

Chantel....